I try to make me
believe that I can forget you
But unhappily my conscience is hard to listen to …
How can you erase all our memories this way?
How can you stay here with nothing to say?
Can’t you see that my heart is really
tornAlthough all the indifference it was worn?
My fingers run on the keyboard, gnarled …
But don’t worry! My tears have dried…
I’ve stopped crying when I saw reality:
We’ll
never be able to see each other friendly.
This poem is neither my last complain
Nor an ultimate token of my pain …
No.It’s just the best evidence of my hate,
To say all future apologies will be late.
Even if I’m sure that you won’t
apologize.
Even if my
hatred can’t make you agonize.
I know.I ask friendship that’s left to write that.
But you know, these feelings, I’m bad at …
One day, I said pity is the same as friendship.
I don’t think so now. Be friend is a nip …
A parasite which devours me insidiously
And
hurts until the bottom of my soul,
sadistically.
Oh!I hate you as
violently as I used to like you before.
I’d like to go and see you to say more and more,
To tell you the reasons which explain my
anger...
But I can’t do this … only for my honor.
I won’t still run after you to win again your sympathy …
Anyway I want neither pretended support nor pity.
Stay in your world, I will stay in my bubble of lies
And consider this poem as a last
goodbye …